Straight Lili No Chaser

At some point in our lives, we’ve all stood in front of a mirror and wondered, contemplated and speculated. We stare at the mirror and pinch away at the fat. We lift our butt to see if it needs to sit higher, we readjust our boobs to create some sorta cleavage cause the bigger the better. Whether your goal was to gain your abs by the summer or to gain a few pounds so you could have a little booty back there . In this day and age we all are trying to figure out how to obtain that " ideal body ." I mean, it’s not easy out here to be content, with all the body images we see as we scroll through Twitter & Instagram. It always seems that what is ideal is the opposite of what we currently possess. I mean I cannot tell you how many images of Rihanna I have seen in the past month since she “gained a little extra.” (I myself, retweeted an image of her as well) But she’s been everywhere lately, for apparent reasons. She’s gotten thicker, everywhere. Now please understand majo...

For the ones who can say, "middle school sucked"...this is for you. August 23, 2008. I couldn't fall asleep last night. For what seemed like an endless night, I laid there wide-eyed with tears slowly creeping down my cheeks, as countless thoughts kept my mind in a panic.  "What is wrong with me?" "Why do they look at me that way?" "Am I gonna force myself to go back there tomorrow?" I have been bullied since the day I began middle school, and I can dissect everything a dirty look has to say in merely 3 seconds. I have isolated myself from any and everyone, I have perfected the ability to be alone in a room full of people. I can fake a fever and upset stomach so well, even I have unintentionally convinced myself that I'm sick on some days. And since they pointed their finger at me and laughed, I have been trying to convince myself that, things will get better. Trying to convince myself that if I can just ...