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A Letter For You

Dear Past Me,

2017 was a pretty tough year for you.  And by pretty tough I mean the worst year yet. Had you had the chance to get a glimpse of what was ahead, who knows what you would have done. But you freaking made it! Through every heartbreak, disappointment, let-down...you made it.

Through every moment of uncertainty and fear, through every day of loneliness and sadness, now you see...those days and moments don't last forever. And I am so proud of you. For staying strong when you felt the weakest. For not giving up, when you felt like there was no point in trying anymore. For continuing to love although you felt like your love was unwarranted. For being tireless in your efforts, when you felt like all your hard work was going unnoticed. For believing in you, even when all you could see in yourself was failure.

In this moment, two days into the new year, I write this letter with sincere gratefulness. Grateful for both the successes and for the failures, especially the failures. For the people who appeared, both the good, the bad, and the less attractive. My heart is thankful for the lessons that taught me how to stand up for myself, and for the lessons that helped me discover the voice within.

Yes, I am appreciative for all the failures that I faced in my career, my relationship, my friendships because it was these failures that brought you to a realization that the absolute best and only way to achieve a life of happiness and fulfilment, is by being who you are without regret and without shame.

Though it was tough, it was necessary, it brought you to this point.

Those moments created the fearless, confident, and loving woman, that you are and that God desired for you to be.
And now that you are moving forward, move forward with confidence, humbleness and determination like never before. Moving forward accepting the lessons of the past.

In 365 days, you have came such a long way and thanks to those past 365 days you know exactly what will propel you forward and what will pull you back . Know that you win some and you lose some and you lose some again.

But understand that life is not just happening to you, its happening for you. To place you exactly where you need to be, to reach the potential that was God-given.  So do not be afraid, when those uncertain times come, do not be fearful when the unexpected happens. But be confident, that you are exactly where you should be.

Believe that you can and understand and accept when you cant. Most importantly live your life being you and no one else.

Love always,
You.

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